In the void

I miss my English speaking life.

I always talk to the Source and to nature in English. Often with kitty, too. More than often with myself.

I live a bi-lingual life, and I have my heart in more places than one. Who doesn’t?

Being on retreat gives time for reflection. Where do I want my life to head? What actions can I take to get there?

I have a pretty clear intent for 2011, especially with my work. I also intend to stay in my apartment for a while, and to rent a cottage with Emma my wonderful sister.

But I am also experiencing a side of myself so new and unfamiliar. And I am curious to where it will lead me, how life around me with unfold according to this pranic vibe: A contentment of being where I am.

Even though winter is here.

Even though “here” is Sweden, and – winter.

I have travelled and moved away from winter so many years of my life. And this winter – I am just gonna stay. I’ve chosen it. I have the best work, and I have the best people in my life. At home. In Stockholm.

Yet, it also is a time of building a platform for the winter of 2011-12. And I was planning to take March off in order to travel a bit to some destination which might have to do with that.

I have no idea today where that might be.

I kind of have no idea what to do with this afternoon, even.

A day of open space. Of poking the fire.

And perhaps of listening to hear some longings.